How people belittle themselves with depending on systems and not shaping them, how they belittle themselves by underestimating their potential. I do think it comes from being unaware. They are unaware of the game. How could it be, I ask myself and seek the answer from others yet I still have not understood. It saddens me that people are living in realities set by other people who benefit from them living in those small realities. One of my friends who is now founding a space tech company in SF told me how everyone was faking it to get funding etc, and I thought to myself that every system builder does the same. And some people live in those realities. My energy is brought down by being around those kind of people, because it genuinely upsets me.
The fact that people live very unaware lives and even unaware what they lose leading those lives. I aspire from Marcus Aurelius a lot in that sense, he transcended his mind onto something tangible — he manifested his thoughts into reality.
How small every solvable problem is I see, right now my benchmark for a really fucked situation is if a person has a sickness without a cure, and then maybe I would suggest reaching out to the best biotech labs and letting them do whatever they can on you. I am really grateful that every problem I currently have is an easily solvable problem.
I am also really happy on where I am going towards in life, I am getting signs that I am on a good track, I am excited to see what I will make of matter and what has not been altered to matter yet.
P.S: For a long time, I thought feeling bad or sad was a problem, but it is just an outcome that arises from the environment/reasons. I also realized that a lot of people treat those feelings as abnormal, instead of acknowledging that sadness, just like happiness, arises from reasons and is as normal as happiness.